[Jafira]

Homesick for old life:

Sometimes, those who are lucky enough to have obtained some memories of a past life may become homesick for their homeland or their prior perceived form, as well as possible families, mates, friends, and so forth.

With the awakening of these possible perceived memories there may come an accompanying onset of homesickness, either for the life itself, or the form in question, for example, memories of flying may create a longing for the ability to do such again, followed by an accompanying depression that you are now earthbound. Another example being, a life memory of ones mate, partner, or friends, that may bring up the realization of the loss of such relationships.

As well, knowledge or memories of unfinished business in a perceived prior life may create feelings of guilt or failure, for example leaving a pregnant partner to search for food and somehow dying before returning back to her, or needing to do some other example of relevance and being slain before completion.

There are a variety of highly emotional events and realizations that may occur in the search for possible memories of a prior existence, and many of these realizations or feelings of loss can be quite painful and strenuous, as well as difficult to handle, even more so if an individual is not emotionally grounded.

In extreme cases, an individual influenced by their perceptions and emotions concerning past life memories might seek to find ways to physically return home, or to physically transform back to their prior form. I was such a person in the beginning, I was homesick and tried to return home through the use of a complex pattern of sticks and symbols placed around a circle of stones mixed with some foolish rituals. In that regard I can speak from experience, it is a desperation move and a form of escapism. We exist in these bodies and lives now, and we are stuck here until are purpose, lives, and time here are fulfilled.

As well, if you believe that your prior form had been slain, or otherwise destroyed on a physical level, it is dead and decayed now, there is nothing to return to. That life, that past, that reality is now over, you exist here, make of it the best that you can, and do not waste this life, pining for the last, its not what your past self, or its love ones would want for you today, think of it through that perspective, live for the now, you have another chance in this world to experience what you could not in another.

At the same time, in dealing with homesickness for a lost reality, a lost life, I encourage you to reflect upon your past memories with a trick I call the three "R's". Revere, Respect, and Remember.

Revere the memories and knowledge of what you were, you had experienced a life and existence outside of humanity, that knowledge and perspective is unique.

Respect yourself in regards to both that life and who you are today, be strong for who you once were, or what you once existed as, be strong enough to imagine facing your past self in a mirror and not being ashamed of who you are today, live now, in honor of what and whom you once were.

And lastly, remember. Remember that the memories you believe you have are sacred reminders of who you are, and who you have been, write them down and update them frequently, so as to never forget that which means so much to you on a spiritual and emotional level, that you are somebody unique and special, and that which you feel you know of your spirit, your memories, are there to lead you and guide you anew in this life, so for that purpose never forget them they are forever a part of you.

Overall if you have been an otherkin who has awakened to memories of a nonhuman existence, you will likely be homesick for such memories at one time or another, how you cope with such things is your responsibility, I just provided some advice from my own experiences is all. You as an individual must find your own path and method for dealing with and understanding such things. Good luck, and remember you are never alone, others on line can likely relate so never be afraid to confide in others who may be going through, or have gone through, the same or similar experiences.
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